How many times, do you watch a video, and then just stop.

Nothing, you can’t move, your body is nothing more than a marble piece, your mind is not here, it is out there, wondering, thinking of all that is possible.

All that could have been, all the mistakes you made, things you weren’t grateful for. Something like that came to me, just today I watched this video.

And it shook me to the core.

A girl, dying to live, living to die. I don’t know how to express my emotions. I will be honest, I cried after watching it. For the past weeks I have been spending time, ruminating about how I didn’t get a good job, how world is unfair, and here is a girl.

Young and beautiful, with the world in her eyes, who has cancer a rare brain tumor, where chances of survival are rare. She makes vlogs, stays positive and does what she enjoys.

The world should revert back, we have been told. God saves us. Good happens to good people, but no, how can she die.

I don’t even know what I am saying it is just wreckage of thought.

My mind.

I hope one day, I could be

leave. Startin

leave.

leave.

I don’t want to give up.

I want to fight.